Yesterday I decided that for one week I would think before I put anything in my mouth. I know some people might think that is so silly. It isn't. I rarely think before I eat. I wonder if it is just me?
I never ask myself "Am I hungry?" I don't eat because I'm hungry. I think the last time I was hungry was in 1981. I was dieting again. My diet consisted of one hard boiled egg a day. Yep, I know how not to eat just as well as I know how to overeat. It was a Wednesday. I was volunteering at a hotline that night. I had been on this diet for about 2 weeks. I had eaten that one hard boiled egg. I was hungry. That was probably my last day on that diet.
Anyway, yesterday I decided that before I eat I will ask myself, "Am I hungry?" It was 12:30pm before I could answer that question, yes. So I ate. When I got home I had to deal with more crap that just sets me off. I'm not making excuses; I'm just trying to figure me out. I wanted something to eat. Now if I had had some protein cooked, maybe I would have eaten that. What I wanted was that cookie mix or muffin mix but I could not find one of them! So I rummaged in the pantry and there they were. Marshmallows. Well, I have coughing lately and I read that marshmallows were invented to control coughing. I ripped that bag open and started eating those marshmallows. I think I ate ten. Now, I'll admit. I don't really even like marshmallows. So here I was. My first day of my experiment and I lost it.
Several hours later I decided to eat dinner. Was I hungry? I was hungry. I needed real food. So I ate part of a chicken breast, 1/2 a baked potato and a small salad. Even though I gave part of the chicken to Cody, I still ate too much. I was miserable.
Now, I did pass up the peppermint patty candy and the cookies. It was difficult. I wanted them. I wasnt hungry for them. Didn't really like the cookies. BUT I WANTED THEM!
Am I the only one that eats things when I’m not hungry? That eats stuff that I don’t even like?
So back to it today. When I woke up and got dressed, I asked myself if I was hungry. I wasn’t. I wasn’t hungry until almost 10.
What I’m trying to do here is listen to my body. Just listen. I don’t want to eat just to be eating or because someone put a bag of popcorn on my desk. Or because my boss brought cookies, cake and peanut m&m’s from home because his wife didn’t want them in the house. I want to eat because I’m hungry!
This is much harder than I thought. And I wish I could say that just learning to eat when I’m hungry would fix everything. I know it won’t. I have a feeling this is gonna be a marathon instead of a sprint.
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