Reality. That is
what I am dealing with now. As most of
you know, I have battled obesity since I was 8 years old. I have abused my body trying to be thin as
much as I have eating too much food.
For the first time in my life I have lost weight
consistently for almost two years.
Skinny Fiber has been a great tool for me. And yet, I still struggle.
Not every day but often enough that I have hit a place
of not losing and having my weight fluctuate 10 pounds up and down. I’m not feeling as well. My energy levels are down.
So what’s it all about, Alfie?
I’m a diabetic and I take oral meds for it. Now maybe some folks who are diabetic can
just take the meds and eat whatever they want.
I can’t. To keep my blood sugar
low, I have to severely limit my carbohydrate intake. I cannot eat more than 20 grams of carbs a
day to maintain low blood sugar. I do
best between 10 and 15 carbs a day. And
I must tell you, I am not happy about it.
Sometimes you just want to eat a bag of chips, a sandwich
on bread, a bowl (or two of ice cream), a stuffed back potato. I’m ticked off that my body just doesn’t
function very well when it comes to food and processing it. I’m like that klunker of a car most of us
have had that you have to pamper and watch all the time just to get back and
forth to work.
I want to be able to eat 2000+ calories a day and still
be healthy and lean. I can’t. I have to eat less than 1500 calories a day
just to lose weight.
When I was jogging 3-5 miles a day, 5 days a week, I
didn’t lose a pound. Oh, my legs toned
up for sure but how the heck can you be expending 300-400 extra calories a day
and the needle on the scale just sits there?
And then there is that thyroid problem. I take one of the highest dosages because my
thyroid just doesn’t work properly. So
my metabolism is very slow making it harder to lose weight which means less
food. The flip side is, if I don’t eat
enough food, my body goes into starvation mode.
My body has me coming and going!
I had a diet doctor tell me once: “I have good news and bad news for you. The bad news is, you will never be
thin. The good news is, if there is ever
a famine you will be one of the last people to die. Your body is overly efficient.” Thanks, Doc.
I already feel better.
Where does this lead me? To the truth.
Acceptance.
I don’t strive anymore to be thin. I want to be healthy and just be able to buy
my clothes without going to a specialty store.
I want to be able to move without hurting all over or being out of breath
after less than a minute. I want to
control my diabetes instead of it controlling me.
And how does this happen? By choosing every day to eat healthy, stay
away from carbs, move my body, drink lots of water and take my Skinny
Fiber.
I admit some days I don’t want to do these things. That’s my choice too. But what I have come to realize is that I’m
the only one who can decide.
Life isn’t fair.
It really isn’t. But you have to
play the hand you are dealt. As Kenny
Rogers sung in The Gambler, “you gotta know when to hold ‘em; know when to fold
‘em.”
I don’t want to die a young death. I want to see my children marry and have
children. What is more important? Crying over how life is unfair or just
realizing that this battle is no different than many battles that others face
every day.
I get up every day ready to face it all anew. Some days I am a great success. And some days, not so great. I’ll be honest with you. More times than not, it is a struggle for
me.
But still I press on.
For me it is a reality check. As
long as I always get back up, I am making progress. And that is what keeps me going.
Want help losing weight? Check out Skinny Fiber! It has and continues to help me in this
battle for the best life I can have.
copyrighted 2015
caryn Cannatella
